The Hopes to Find Inspiration and an Ever After

First of all, I would like to thank everyone who read the excerpt of my novel. I'm so glad you guys enjoyed it, and I'm especially thankful for your wonderful, constructive critiques! :)

Right now, I'm trying to work on the other chapters I have yet to write...

I... got stuck on the next chapter. I know what I want to write, and I'm able to easily get inside my character's head, but I'm somewhat hesitant to plunge further at full steam ahead because of so many distractions and so many worries floating in the back of my mind...

For instance:

1. Family responsibilities -- chores like cleaning my cluttered room and cooking dinner, as well as picking up my little sister from school.
2. School -- the new semester is starting this week, and I'm a little nervous about my classes. I haven't even ordered my textbooks yet, so I definitely have to deal with that later.
3. Youth group responsibilities -- I'm in the leadership position of the masonic youth group I'm part of, the International Order of the Rainbow for Girls... and I have yet to memorize my parts and plan for future events/activities. I seriously don't want to mess anything up, so I'm crossing my fingers that everything goes well.
4. Guys you're supposed to be completely immune to -- I saw tuberculosis recently, and even went so far as to say 'hi' to him like nothing was wrong, just to be nice. I didn't think much of it... until my sister told me he was staring again. And what bugged me even more was when my mother kept telling me that he was asking around for me, which is something that is pretty uncharacteristic of him, given the circumstances between us some years ago. My sister insists that I'm the one making it awkward because I refuse to talk to him (mostly because I don't really have much to say... and I'd much rather avoid any uncomfortable pauses and lead him on into thinking that I'm still into him -- which I'm not. Into him, that is. Flustered, but not into him. I'm pretty sure of it).
   
   But is that really completely my fault, especially when this guy stares at me but doesn't say a word? If he wants to talk to me, why can't he just come up to me and just try to say something, then?
   
   I'm not as mad as I used to be at him... a little guarded, maybe, but not mad. I realize now that the misunderstanding that took place in the past is pretty inconsequential, and it was both our faults. But COME ON. I was brave enough the last time, when I told him straight-out how I felt about him years ago. Why can't he be the brave one this time?
   
   Whatever... I'd rather not wait around forever. Maybe the next time, I'll woman up and ask him point-blank, "Have your eyes strained from trying to covertly look at me yet?" Just to jolt him out of his hiding place and maybe get whatever it is on his mind out in the open. Maybe it'll be good for the both of us to clear the air of unsaid things, of unresolved issues (whatever the heck those might be), of what's going on inside this paranoid weirdo's head. I just hope I've got the ovaries to do it.

Anyway. Now that I've gotten these out of the way, I feel a little better.

I'm listening to He Is We's "Happily Ever After" again, to find some inspiration to lift up my spirits. I may not know my ending... but hopefully I can find one for my good friend, Danica. A true friend in my head, hehe.

Let me riddle you a ditty,

It's just an itty bitty little thing on my mind.

'Bout a boy and a girl try to take on the world,

one kiss at a time.

Now the funny thing about it,

ain't a story without it,

but the story is mine,
And I wish I could say that it ended just fine.

We all wanna know....
How it ends.

Oh happily ever after

Wouldn't ya know, wouldn't ya know?

Oh skip to the ending

Who'd like to know?

I'd like to know

Author of the moment,
Can you tell me?

Do I end up, do I end up happy?

And oh man... I'm such a sucker for movies like this:

And of course, this dialogue between Prince Henry and Danielle (now the princess) is one of my faves:

Danielle: You, Sir, are supposed to be charming.
Henry: And we, Princess, are supposed to live happily ever after.
Danielle: Says who?
Henry: You know, I don't know.

I like to think that maybe Henry's onto something there.

We all have a story to tell. So until next time, my friends. Keep writing, keep finding that missing something, the path to your ever afters. I hope your ever afters are happy. ;)